Day 9: Waning Crescent

Moon Rise: 2:09 A.M.

Moon Set: 4:18 P.M.

The sky tonight is perfect. It makes me just wish I could just pack what I need, and just hit the road without looking back.

-Energy of Self: Anxious, Thoughtful

•Time: Monday, September 7, 2015 @ 2:09 A.M.

Isn’t crazy to think how every decision, big or small, affects your life in some way. No matter what you can’t escape whatever that decision brings.

It’s so easy to say that I’m just going to jump and my car and go, but it’s a little harder trying to put that plan into action. I’ve spent so many nights just wishing I had the courage to just leave everything I know behind to start over fresh somewhere far away from here. The anxiety it brings me knowing I’m just going to wake up and drive to work to whatever emotions the day will bring is all that’s waiting for me there.

I walk in everyday with a smile on my face, and focused on how the people around me will feel throughout the day. I try to leave every selfish emotion or thought behind because it really means something to me that I get to interact with the people that I do. I guess I’m trying to remind myself not to lose that thought of what’s important. Just to stay focus on helping out brightening someone else’s day. It’s about bringing out the positivity each day brings, and making some other person smile as well.

Certain weekends bring anxiety when I have to think about getting back into my week routine for waking, getting ready, getting to work, and whatever I do after. Some days it’s a lot harder to even want to wake up and go because I know who will also be there. I don’t want to fake any part of my day, but that’s all that I can really do.