Day 22: First Quarter

Moon Rise: 2:41 P.M.

Moon Set: 12:27 A.M.

“I WILL BE STRONGER THAN ALL OF THE NEGATIVITY!!! I WILL NOT GIVE INTO ANY OF IT!! I’M GOING TO MAKE SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL, REAL, AND AMAZING THROUGH THIS!” – Today’s mantra

-Energy of Self: Motivated, strong, passionate

•Time: Monday, September 21, 2015 @ 12:27 A.M.

Today felt like time kept creeping by as slowly as possible. The entire day seemed never ending. I had the Monday blues after a long, action-filled weekend. It probably didn’t help reality is still setting in about the new rules applied only to myself at work. It drives me absolutely nuts at the fact I can’t leave my desk when I want or need to, and having to depend on someone when I can.

I’m going to work through it, though. I’m going to focus on the positive feedback, and the new responsibilities and tasks that I have to opportunity to learn.

I guess the one thing that is like the tiny needle that keeps poking you in the same spot is the second I have some free time, and all I can do is just sit. My mind just starts thinking too much about life outside of work. I just try to keep busy from letting my mind wander to that place.

I guess I would say I felt pretty down the entire day until on my way home. I turned on my rap music, and just patiently made my way home through traffic. That’s when I decided to stop the pity party I was having for myself and cheer the fuck up.

I typed out my little mantra to myself, read it over eleven times, and that’s when I instantly felt better. I let out a  scream just to release the bottled-up emotions and just laughed to myself because that’s all I could do at myself. It’s amazing what just believing in yourself, and remind yourself of more positive things can just lift your spirits.

Always remember to laugh at yourself, scream at the top of your lungs, and think some happy thoughts.