okay so im done doing the stupid things i used to, its totally not worth it.. and you can lose people who you really care about from doing it SO IM DONE! yep im very proud to say that too.
oh im def. on the JV squad big heck yeah very happy for that too but ive screwed up my back.. or did something i just know im in alot of pain
but still very not lonely but idk its hard to describe im not desperate or anything but its like ill meet a guy and totally fall for him then people tell me how he is, and stupid me i stick up for them saying they are totally not like that..then i get shown they actually are maybe its because its me? or i dont know how to pick the right guy? all i know is i miss that feeling i had in 7th and 8th grade with james..we were like married and totally ourselves around each other…i was so happy then too, i know it will come back soon..not all guys are jerks..right? boy i hope so
oh and im def. focusing more on my beliefs ive gotten so far away from god that you wouldnt even think i had god in my life and thats absolutly terrible!
and im gettin really pale! yucky! lol